PRECARIOUS PRAYER BY THE WOMAN ON THE MOON
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PRECARIOUS PRAYERS AND INSIGHTFUL ADVICE FROM THE MOON
© 2010 by Joseph Edward Bonnette
MAIN REFERENCE TEXT: REVELATION CHAPTER 12.
1: And there appeared a great wonder in heaven: a
woman clothed with the sun, and the moon under her
feet, and upon her head a crown of twelve stars. 2: And
she being with child cried, travailing in birth, and
pained to be delivered. 3: And there appeared another
wonder in heaven; and behold a great red dragon, having
seven heads and ten horns, and seven crowns upon his
heads. 4: And his tail drew the third part of the stars
of heaven, and did cast them to the earth. And the
dragon stood before the woman which was ready to be
delivered, for to devour her child as soon as it was
born. 5: And she brought forth a man child, who was to
rule all nations with a rod of iron, and her child was
caught up unto God, and to his throne. 6: And the woman
fled into the wilderness, where she hath a place
prepared of God, that they should feed her there a
thousand two hundred and sixty days.
7: And there was war in heaven: Michael and his
angels fought against the dragon, and the dragon fought
and his angels. 8: And prevailed not, neither was their
place found any more in heaven. 9: And the great dragon
was cast out: that old serpent, called the Devil, and
Satan, which deceives the whole world: he was cast out
into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him.
10: And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, “Now is
come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our
God, and the power of his Christ; for the accuser of
our brethren is cast down, which accused them before
our God day and night.” 11: And they overcame him by
the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their
testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the
death. 12: Therefore rejoice, you heavens, and you that
dwell in them.
Woe to the inhabitants of the earth and of the sea!
For the devil is come down unto you, having great
wrath, because he knows that he has but a short time.
13: And when the dragon saw that he was cast unto the
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earth, he persecuted the woman which brought forth the
man child. 14: And to the woman were given two wings of
a great eagle, that she might fly into the wilderness,
into her place, where she is nourished for a time, and
times, and half a time, from the face of the serpent.
15: And the serpent cast out of his mouth water as a
flood after the woman, that he might cause her to be
carried away of the flood. 16: And the earth helped the
woman, and the earth opened her mouth, and swallowed up
the flood which the dragon cast out of his mouth. 17:
And the dragon was angry with the woman, and went to
make war with the remnant of her seed: which keep the
commandments of God, and have the testimony of Jesus
Christ.
CHAPTER 1: THE GREATEST MYSTERY OF ALL TIME:
The greatest mystery of all time is why did not
Jesus preserve the truth better than he did in the
world? He could have written his own books, or chosen
apostles who would have copiously taken notes, and then
compared them against 12 copies from each apostle.
Jesus did many miracles, so many, that John said the
earth could not have contained the pages if they were
all written down, yet not only did Jesus then not at
least make John write down a “few more,” but in all
those miracles, the miracle of Jesus writing something
with his own hand was not included. He fixed broken and
even dead people with his hand, could he not have made
words appear on pages of a book, and then “enforced” to
be made part of the permenant and eternal “canon?” The
church has not always been the most pliable and “hot
bride” for Jesus to make use of, and even, according to
some records, the book of Revelation was debated for a
long time, and put on the “apacraphal list.” But Jesus
could have been a little more “hard nosed” about
getting his truths out there, and even, if needs be, as
a last resort, made “heads roll” if the church did not
“gird up the loins of their minds” and get down to
business with propagating the truths of Jesus.
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If God needs his church to preach to and therefore
save others, according to PSALM 51, “and sinners shall
be converted unto you,” why has God chosen rather to
let countless souls go to an eternal hell, than to make
his church “move” towards preaching to them? Rather,
professors of Christianity have been allowed to turn
the career of ministering to the lost, into a “machene”
to make money flow into their pockets. Do we not
already have enough greed in the world? So why then
does not the very Father of those who profess to be
his, do something about the greed of his own people?
The church is like the wife of a man who is “running
amock,” and just “allowed” to continue on, without so
much as a rebuke or official divorce! The words of
Malachi 3:10, which are the only words of the whole
Bible which put the reputation of the veracity of God’s
word on the line to the judgment and scruteny of rank
sinners, are being abandonned by God, because God
apparently no longer honors his own bride enough to
think giving to her cause is worthy of the reward he
promised. Or when you paid tithes, did you actually get
a blessing beyond mere crumbs? But where is the “not
room enough to receive” part fulfilled, or even close
to it? Or does God think we are all cockroaches, and so
the smallest scraps of glue from an envelope or
something is enough to “fill us up to overflowing?”
If a man said, “give to my wife, and in me you will
have a friend that no King in history could surpass in
giving rewards, and if you do not believe me, just go
ahead and test me, or prove me now herewith,” and so
you give to his wife, and guess what? Nothing! You go
on day after day, just getting strung along by the same
old bread crumbs, and to be honest, you can see no real
change you can truly recognize as such, you would think
the man is so discontent and in a case of contempt for
his wife, he does not even bother to tell her, or make
an official disclaimer of her to the world! Yet one
would have to think that is what God is doing regarding
the church: whom you can pay tithes to, and yet get
nothing back beyond what you would have had anyways,
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and less, because you gave the money! Where are the
promises, especially when they are based on the most
“honor based” mode of dealing with cold, dead, rank
sinners, as to say, “just test me, and see if I will
not pour out the windows of heavens, and for your sake
no less!” Where else but in tithing does God promise
anything “for our sake?” To the contrary, (in every
other place of speaking with us,) he goes through great
lengths to tell us, “not for your sakes do I this; be
ashamed for your own ways.”
CHAPTER 2: IS THERE A WOMAN LIVING ON THE MOON?
The woman on the moon is mother church, whom Mary
is the symbol of, full of God’s grace, with the Lord
Jesus is her husband. This husband is of a nature so
vast, and of the only truly “man nature,” being the
“man child,” that she manifests Jesus this husband as
if radiating the glistening sun blazing in his
strength. The moon is under her feet because as far
removed and different of a territory the moon is to the
earth, that is how far off and distant a Christian’s
relationship with Jesus is, compared with the world.
But why does the church get the short end of the stick,
and not all corral the non Christians to the moon
instead? Because the church is simply recognizing what
is there, and the finest blessings a sinner enjoys, if
seen for what it is, is nothing but bleakness and
craters; even as a sinner’s finest works are filthy
rags.
And the Holy Spirit is in the church, though her
acknowledgement and judgment says she is on the moon,
makes her gift of loving the word capable to share with
us all. And “even though or so” as if disparaging such
a power, because the “assault” she is capable of
inflicting on the sin in sinners is according to purely
satanic judgment “criminal,” though according to the
law of love “sublimely and exquistely united to the
fullest fullness of God.” And it is her acknowledgement
and knowledge she is, by Biblical symbolism “on the
moon,” that gives the church her power over all the
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power of the enemy, because when we know our bleak
environment, we can then prepare and invent the means,
and in this case that of pithy prayer and discourse, to
live in it.
Blessed is the insistent bride among all the mere
professors of Christianity, who do not sit benumbed in
their sin, while they rust solid as a heart of stone in
the very outpouring of the water of life, but seek the
oil of heaven, even the wax of the heart of Jesus.
Grace preserves holiness, but only perfect lack of
grace preserves a sinful wretch from progressing in his
sin. If we do not use grace as the means to overcome
sin, we will wish we had been preserved in hell, where
we could no longer store up more wrath and many
“stripes” with which God shall punish us! Grace is
life, and life to a disease makes it only to spread and
fester and increase: and that is what sin is! How then
shall we receive grace, unless there is so more sin in
us, without increasing in sin? Sin is by definition
“against God and God only,” and so if a sin is against
another person, it is only because God stands in the
gap and proclaims it to be against him that it is
against that person. This means that no sin could exist
if God decided it was not longer against him, because
he decided not to seek to save anyone anymore. We are
in a program of grace which seeks lost sinners, as to
why the world is existing at all anymore since sin
entered it. Had God decided to just call the whole
thing a loss and scrapped it, satan’s lightning bolt of
falling would have resumed full speed eternally. That
means that Jesus would not have come to die for sin,
and satan would have had perfect immunity to any
punishment due to sin forever. Every person who died
throughout the whole universe, full of countless
infinite, truly super innumerable company of sinful
people, would have all died and gone eternally to a
state of limbo.
Jesus described sin as that which can be “put in
remission,” or that is, “cast away.” Though the casting
away is more a “remission,” like a disease held in
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check, it cannot feed off of grace and become strong,
but is like a “specimine” in a laboratory, and sealed
as a biohazard under the strictest and most extreme
safeguards. This “power to contain and overcome sin” is
the blood of Jesus, as it proceeds from his crucified
body, as he became a sin far more superior to, yet
perfectly without displeasure to God; for it is the
healing and reversal of all our sinfulness. This sin
Jesus was made to be for us, so we can be made his
righteousness, was “made” from before the foundation of
the world, parabolically mentioned in GENESIS 1:2 as
the “earth without form and void” (for he cried “my God
why have you forsaken me?”) and “with darkness on the
face of the deep.” Jesus is the Lamb slain from the
foundation of the world, and born in a stable for the
very reason to signify he is this “Lamb” whose purpose
is to die for our sins. And now that Jesus has died,
did he rise again? But as what? The human Jesus, or of
a being of a whole new kind of existence, and even with
a new name? The human Jesus not only shed his blood but
his whole humanity! He is resurrected and alive
forevermore, “but” and not to discredit that fact,
“but” he is no longer human. That “stage and phaze” of
Jesus died forever! In that one thing Jesus fulfilled
the word “death” which implies “finality!” Even as
Jesus said “it is finished!” What? His death only, or
his humanity? His humanity lives on, but he is not as a
man anymore, though also God, but as he was the “God
man,” now Jesus is the “God angel!”
Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever, but
forever how? He certainly was not always a baby, or
always working as a carpenter, or dying on the cross!
Does it mean he was always made flesh and dwelt among
us? Is he the same that way? Of course not. The way
Jesus is the same has to be of some much higher and
deeper into his roots as God than what “appears” to our
best intellect and perseption. Many will love a
mindless faith which does not challenge our carnal
unity, since we cannot stand too many more fractures
into denominationalism; and so Jesus must be God
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without understanding why and how he is God.
Understanding what is true does not ever hurt or harm
or endanger, but to the contrary knowing better what
truth is only helps and increases our unity with God
and one another. It only splits us up when we insist on
coming to conclusions too quickly, and do not rely in
all finality that to understand is an act of love to
God, and not a necessity that it’s conclusion is
understanding, but that the act and effort is made. So
that if we find that the word of God is too ambiguous
for any clear and consise knowledge, which obviously it
must be seeing we all have so many different opinions
as to the finer details of it’s meanings, faith which
is in league with peace which passes all understanding
will carry the day, and preserve us for the day we
shall know even as we are known. Further, to all see
things exactly alike and to all agree on even the most
core issues in how it should all be understood is not
and should not be the focus of any group of Christians,
but to simply preserve that worshipful intregity of God
in every person’s personal soul that raises and
nourishes them up in seeking and knowing and receiving
the Lord Jesus as their true savior. None of us sees a
tree or tastes anything exactly the same, though it be
the same thing, so why should we be surprised if
everyone has a different idea of heaven, or perhaps,
since we are sinful by nature, that we “might” even
have, God forbid, flaws in some of our beliefs? Should
our delusional stage of development, which the Lord
intends to give us a repentance and deliverance from,
be the cause of rejection by the church? How many whom
God has intended to save, have already been rejected by
the church, when we should be “like our Father who is
mercififul?” If a God our master wants to build
something, like a soul, but you already deemed that
lumber, (symbolic of a soul) as worthless, then you
stole that material in the act of not seeking to “aid”
God as his wife in raising and bearing that soul! How
many have the form of satanic “godliness” that says “to
treat them harshly, and if they are elect and know
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what’s good for them, they will come back for more?”
For more what? Why would anyone come back to someone
who has their definitions of love and hate, kindness
and anger, patience and wrath, etc. all mixed up? It’s
like we are fishing for some love in our pockets to
give away, but all we got is hate and anger and self
exaltation, and so we say, “it’s all good, because it
was in my pocket!” But possession is nine tenths the
law, and that applies to the law of God too; and so we
should work to identify if what we call love is really
love or not; because if it’s not, it was in our
possession, and so we must get branded as haters or
whatever “we got.”
All sin is against God and God only, because God
decides to what degree the person the perpetrator
thinks it is against actually suffers and feels those
wicked intentions. God says murder deserves death to
the perpetrator, because we are made in God’s image,
and therefore “dolls” to signify God, and as it were
“clothes” which cover God’s ultimate image. The casting
away is not instantious anymore than the fall of
Lucifer is, though he falls like a bolt of lightning,
with a mighty “crack” of “slow thunder.” Falling
denotes greater and greater distance, not an immediate
separation, though there is that in the initial stages
of “falling into perdition.” But once we reach the
“shore,” where our ship of faith is sailing unto, all
this “falling,” whether away or into sin, will be over
and done instantiously. The mighty crack of thunder of
satan’s fall like lightning will be heard rolling over
the horizon of paradise once it has struck it’s
destination: even the lake of fire! Then time shall be
no longer a delay or with limit as to what it can
“carry” in it’s canopy. The frail and tender earth of a
sinner will flee from the face of the all knowing God,
and be sealing with the eternal cement and glue of love
to heal all breaches and weaknesses.
which would be desolate as the moon if it were not
for God’s loving presence, and blessed is the fruit of
your womb: your born again soul, conceived without sin,
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by the faith of Jesus planted in your heart. Holy
mother church, brother, sister and mother of the Lord
Jesus, who does his will, MATT. 12:50, intercede for us
sinners, (in the animation of your husband’s heart,) as
the “Holy Spirit” in us teaching us what we ought to
pray, in the “ever now” of faith, HEB. 11:1, and be
with us at the hour of our death, or rapture, when we
shall be changed in the twinkling of an eye. Amen. 1
COR. 15: 52. 1 THESS. 4:17.
CHAPTER 1: THE BEGINNING OF THE SOLITARY PRAYERS AND
MEDITATIONS:
Here upon this desolate moon, I the voice of the
messenger of the wilderness speak from to God and
mankind. God, you have made me with a heart large
enough to engulf the whole earth below me in the shadow
of your presence; as you did at the time of our Lord’s
crucifixion. LUKE 23:44. ACTS 5:15. Here in the
wilderness of this place of prayer, do I fly unto the
seriousness of truth, to escape all nuances of
deceitful religiosity, (as one might escape smudges on
their lens,) with the eagle like wings of the Holy
Spirit. Here God, (who else? AMOS 3:6,) nourishes me
away from the powers of the devil, but to also nourish
me by the very powers which satan has lost in his
defeat, as “honey taken out of the carcass of the slain
lion.” Yet we do not need to know that in defeating the
devil, (by simply making use of the means Jesus gives
us, such as the Holy Bible and prayer and fasting,
PSALM 19:10,) that the “honey” we then thrive on, was
taken out of satan’s carcass to feed us. JUDGES 14:8-9.
But in Jesus Christ’s death upon the cross, the
“evil one” (and his devils,) who “touched the Lord’s
anointed,” PSALM 22:12-13, also died, yet were not
raised again, because now Jesus has all power in heaven
and in earth. The devil has become a “mark of the Lord
Jesus,” as surely as any scourging or hitting
instrument has been made so! GAL. 6:17. Now our past
sins, which are marks of the Lord Jesus heal as if they
were ORIGINALLY the marks of the Lord Jesus! Don’t let
any man trouble me (from henceforth, GAL. 6:17,) saying
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how I wasted my time, and hurt others, including
myself, and how much better it would have been had I
not done so, for these past sins are all now “marks of
the Lord Jesus!” Where sin abounded, grace did much
more abound, so the scars and losses from my past sins
are paid with added grace, and though I came late to
the harvest, Jesus uses “what is his” to pay me the
same as those who have borne the heat and burden of the
day. And if you are not judging by what has God’s
presence in it, then you are nothing but an
“experiment” of the Lord, who is a “vessel of wrath.”
The world like a swarm of pigs runs down the steep
cliff into hell, following what they judge to have
“value” because it is what they are buying. But I shall
show you that we are not even supposed to be here!
Jesus said “I saw satan fall like lightning from
heaven.” Does it mean he is no longer falling because
the “lightning bolt” has struck? No! This lightning
bolt’s destiny is the lake of fire: it is still
“discharging” it’s, (what would appear to be) super
slow spark. But why and how was this earth and universe
“weakened?” How did light slow to a relative snail’s
pace as it is today? It was weakened by God taking a
section of eternal time, even a “lightning bolt’s space
of time,” and slowing it down to around what we know of
as “7,000” years! That is the answer to why satan’s
justice did not occur immediately, and why God did not
just throw him away immediately! It’s because God is!
It is just that the “immediate” has been slowed down,
by what we know of as “grace,” and “mediated” by the
only mediator between God and man, the man Christ
Jesus! Why is it, after all, when we lose grace, we
lose time? Why is it that when God lifts his mercy from
off a person, that person plummets into the abyss,
without being able to keep track of time, even long
portions of it? Had God not “pulled apart time” like
stretching the skin of a drum or spreading the paint in
a can, etc., and just let satan burn himself out,
without effecting creation, it would have sealed
creation under the “canopy” of the “cherub who covers.”
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The last judgment, or “judgment day,” is going to
be resounding with the “crack” of this bolt of
lightning: the lightning bolt of satan falling from
heaven! Satan who will look back, as if it all happened
in the space of time for a bolt of lightning, and will
stand sore amazed that God intercepted his fall by the
sufficiency of the cross. And why did not intercede?
Because had not God done, countless and truly infinite
numbers of people throughout endless ages would all
have been victims of the devil. Death would have never
ceased, but both the good and evil would have all gone
to the same place: the place which existed before the
death of Jesus, which David “God is there.” Hell was
not a place of torment until Jesus rose from the dead
and left hell forever. The idea of eternal torment was
something new that did not exist until Jesus fulfilled
the law, and therefore every promise and prophecy of
the holy scriptures. They are so called “scriptures,”
because the Bible is our “script” in how we must act,
and though it is “acting,” it is necessary. God loves
hypocrites who do so in obedience to him, but hates
hypocrites who act like they are obeying God. Either
way we must follow a director of some kind, and so what
would perfect “free thought and being and doing” look
like? The reason only God is worthy of being our
director and chief, is because to follow the advice of
a mere man, is basically like obeying the “spontaneous”
movements of a sinner. That is therefore like rehashing
your sin to save it as “left overs.” If only we did not
think highly of ourselves by unadvisable sources, but
had to hear God tell us personally we are precious and
valuable, because a little would feel so much like
“more,” we would be hooked on God for all eternity.
But how did God prepare for something that should
have been unforeseen, and which happened in the time it
takes for lightning to strike? Since time is a
spreading of a single instant in a sea of innumerable
instants which make up eternity, time is like holding
the jaws of lion open. Jesus said he saw satan fall
like lightning from heaven, but now Jesus only sees
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satan fall like a carnal creature. Before the fall,
time whirred on by at a super-infinite speed, yet like
looking at wagon wheel spokes, it can look like it
stands still at the same time. And when time is an
ocean which is super-infinite, yet cannot be taken from
or added to, it is equal to substance itself. Our
single moment, which was spread out into 7,000 years,
but which is but a moment, if it were not endued with
grace, would have been spent in extermination of
humanity altogether.
Humans are the only creatures on earth who can lose
their fight and will to live, and it is all in our
ability to reason, which ironically we hate as if we
wish we could be mere animals. Had grace not been with
us from the beginning sin entered the world, Adam and
Eve would not have had the attraction to propagate the
species, and they would have sat down and never ate or
drank again. God complains of those who “are vessels
wherein there is no pleasure,” and so even carnal power
is part of the spectrum of the Holy Spirit. Just as we
would lack the gift of the Holy Spirit without divine
love, and lack natural affection without filial
brotherly love, we would lack carnal lust if God did
not put that power in us.
And there is no creation which does not run on
God’s power, so to think it has to be from the devil or
not of God just because it is carnal means you just
don’t want to deal with the work of praying for God to
take what is his, and cleanse it. Humans are still made
in the image and likeness of God, and so instead of
victimizing our human image further, by denying
ourselves God’s glory, we should claim what “thus says
the word,” and not let sin have the victory in us. We
must either claim that something is from the devil, or
else we got to pray for more of it, and a perfecting of
it. If we cannot do either, then we are failing to
“discern the body of Jesus, 1 COR. 11:29, and just
spirits in general.” HEB. 5:14. 1 JOHN 4:1. Jesus calls
those who take what God gives without praying for it
thieves, but to pray means you got some “idea or
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sense,” at least in some “ball park estimate” it is the
WILL OF GOD to do so. You may tack “according to your
will” to the prayer, but it would be absurd to pray for
something you had absolute knowledge it was not God’s
will, and then add “according to your will.” God
applying any mercy (condescension) to the prayer is
unlikely since the most rank of a sinner’s prayer is to
tempt God and pray with willful sin in the very prayer,
and a sinner has a hard enough time moving God with
cries of abject pity. And this ought to be a shock to
know that God never goes without answering prayer. He
just does not reveal the answer, and many times will
lay a favorable and unfavorable answer side by side and
wait to see which door we will choose. Do we want the
“pandoras box” of all the hours we wasted complaining,
or cursing at God, or perhaps, (so we thought,) not
praying at all? Or do we want the “other door” behind
which is the promises which Jesus bought for us with
his own blood and suffering? Perhaps it would be wise
of me to inform you that God does not think one minute
of any person’s life is spent not praying to him, or
praying to him and yet not hearing us. To say God hears
not the sinner’s prayer, or that some do not pray at
all, are both “operational” statements, and not
“practical” statements. Because while sin separates us
from God, (and lack of prayer or NON prevailing prayer
is also sin,) sin it is said, “cries unto God:” it
prays to God day and night as if it is elect, but elect
to damnation! God hears the prayers of the sinners,
even the worst sinners of Sodom and Gomorra whom God
said “the cry of the city has become great.” GEN.
18:20. What does God hear when you are busy pushing God
completely “out of sight out of mind?” What
“intelligence” is the “all surveying” ears of God
picking up when you are saying NOTHING to him? What
endless conversations will have gone on between you and
God without ever having come out of the stupor of sin?
Until finally you meet a “purely just and righteous”
God, and not the God of sympathy and pity you had to
deal with in your life of your “body of death.” Will
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God just say “you didn’t mean it when you insulted and
disobeyed me?” Hardly, when if God judged us by
justice, simply not being his only Son would be reason
enough to punish us eternally! The very Holy Angels
themselves who never sinned are dependent on their
“everlasting father Jesus” to make them acceptable to
God. But God! How can we be to blame for not being your
ONLY SON? Only ONE person can be that! But that is what
we are dealing with: a God who is so Holy, that no one
comes to him but by his only Son! Only the sufferings
of Jesus pleased God, and all our finest works, even
our most painful fasting is nothing but menstruous
rags! The number one work of the devil, which far
outweighs all his other works is to FLATTER SINNERS! If
satan were not allowed to flatter sinners, sinners
would place far less weight on their own works, and see
their good works as merely prerequisites to “keep them
in the race to eternal life,” instead of being proof of
their “arrival” at the finish line. God alone would be
the finish line in a sinner’s mind if satan did not
make sinners so satisfied with themselves, that they
can be content to leave God out of their lives. The
only people satan comes as a roaring lion to, are the
enlightened who are already fighting him, or those who
might be destined for enlightenment and opposition
against the devil. Otherwise satan comes not even as an
angel of light, (unless the person he deals with
insists on seeking God,) but satan comes as the person
he comes to! Satan makes the person think he is so
wonderful and great, and all his powers are his own,
that to seek God is like seeking what you already are.
No one will believe satan is so “all encompassing and
powerful” in his “region” as the “prince of the power
of the air,” but if satan is not doing the evil, God is
doing it without satan. Will God deceive a sinner, and
torment him unjustly, and not use the devil to do it?
If the devil is out of the picture, but there is still
trouble in paradise, it’s time to really start trying
to flatter God, because God is not the all loving
always forgiving God you think he is! If your life does
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not make God look like he hates you because the devil
is being “allowed” to mess with you, but because GOD is
making a statement, it’s time to start seeking your
repentance carefully with tears like Esau, hoping that
not all Esaus are hopeless. But seeking God has it’s
own reward, just like running does not need a
destination, but creates it’s own “runner’s high” or
euphoria that makes it worthwhile in itself. And this
“spiritual exercise” of seeking God becomes a trick of
the devil, if we separate the supposed “destination”
from the “glory” of the “operation.” Titles are
glorious, and many have desired books for the title
only, as well as positions in the community, simply
because the “title” of “officer,” or “president” or
“pastor” etc. were glorious. But a book not read is a
worthless book, and a title which is so only in the
“cover” of “human recognition” is “an abomination of
desolation” in the estimation of God. But lack of
wisdom does not reveal how God seeks himself, yet
sinners will not do it. Sinners have exalted themselves
above God: a God who “seeks the deep things of God,”
yet sinners will not seek God.
We must have our faith by which we are saved rooted
and grounded in a loving stand, because we cannot weed
through all the ways we will be doubting and wavering
which of themselves have no bearings on eternal life.
Jesus speaks of how many were choked with the cares of
the world, of whether to do this or that, or is this
true or is that... are you sure she or he is
trustworthy or not: all of which doubts is not the
doubting which damns us if we do not base our lives on
it. If the word of God is first in everything, all we
need to do is make ourselves worthy of the Son of God,
and so do not doubt if we eat his body and drink his
blood. It is impossible to partake of the lower world
without doubting, but the doubting which damns us is
not knowing if we are lead by God or not in every
little thing we do. Those who live their lives in this
crime scene of satan’s fall from heaven without
doubting whether they will live through the day or not,
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or whether everyone will love them or not, are either
often wrong, or else storing up much wrath unto the day
of wrath. We do not know and recognize how vast and
soaking the grace of God is in our lives, without which
we would have nothing separating our souls from the
very hell beneath our feet.
So now satan is temporarily, until he be “taken out
of the way,” 2 THESS. 2:7, an extension of the Lord,
and forced against his will as one exorcised, to serve
the church, and even as if “absorbed” into Jesus, as
“death itself” which has been “swallowed up into
victory.” 1 COR. 15:54. Our own sinful nature which
came from the devil cannot be fully done away, though
we are “born again without sin,” until the day this
body possessed with death and sin dies. But like satan,
our sinful nature, and the scars of past (but repented
of) acts of sin can and must be forced to serve us, and
are even under contract to be the “wounds of the Lord
Jesus which heals us.” GAL. 6:17. The carcass of satan
is like the greatest material gift Jesus ever gave us
while we are in this “PRESENT EVIL WORLD,” GAL. 1:4,
because all satan once owned is now the children’s
bread, and like the “road kill of the cross,” 1 SAM.
17:51, who did not obey the “railroad signals” of “do
not touch the Lord’s anointed one, and do God’s
prophets no harm.” Jesus was the last person of the all
time ever to die under the authority of the devil,
because now Jesus has all power in heaven and in earth,
and is “the mediator of a better covenant.” Now all
authority satan gets to hurt and harm is contingent
upon us, and on how much God “lets” him do it. God is
the one who “lets and will let” as Paul says, as to why
there is a “mystery of iniquity,” until satan and his
angels are taken out of the way. 2 THESS. 2:7. And so
the stinger of satan’s authority has been pulled out,
and he can get his power back only if the church does
not claim what is the “children’s bread,” and thus
“bruise satan under their feet.” What a curse satan has
inherited through the death of Jesus, to only get fed,
if those for whom the bread is, do not eat it! But when
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we do not feed on the word, satan moves in for the kill
to take advantage of our weakened condition, and
attacks our most “prone to defeat” areas like an unfair
wrestler will keep assaulting a weak knee or elbow.
Therefore all of our appetite should be reserved for
the Lord Jesus and his every word, and count all desire
for any “weight or sin” as “adultery” against the Lord,
whose name is Jealous; EXODUS 34:14, or else satan will
greedily lap up the crumbs which fall from our master’s
table as a most wicked “junk yard dog,” or “strong Bull
of Bashan” as he was against the Lord Jesus upon the
cross. How can satan deceive anyone, unless he has
access to those items and knowledge which he has so
corrupted in how they are presented?
So I cry in passion unto you Lord Jesus, but also
in pain to be delivered of this precarious stage of my
existence, when my prayers have not yet seen their full
performance by your power in them. It is strange indeed
as to how beautiful the world is, when it has nothing
to offer, but at best bits and pieces of the truth, as
if broken and crushed in an abomination of desolate
disharmony. But indeed nourish me with the glitter of
the world, since it can only be from your own presence,
NUMBERS 14:21, but hide me from the “vessels of wrath”
JOB 33:17, which are “made to be taken and destroyed.”
2 PETER 2:12. Make my ways please you, so that even my
enemies will be at peace with me. PROV. 16:7. And give
me the preliminary logic I need in order to also gain
the leverage to get everything I need and want, not
only for myself, but for the encouragement of the whole
world to come unto you. Make every repentance prayer be
backed and illuminated with so much mercy, that it is
irresistible to both read, ACTS 6:10, and to receive
your intended end in writing the prayer. ROM. 2:4. And
make your merciful cleansing blood animate all our
thoughts and words so perfectly and fluently, our
adversaries cannot gainsay or resist a single word!
LUKE 21:15. And indeed do not let any of your word
return back to you void of the number of “fish bites’
that your net can hold and keep, and make your hook of
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“barbed love” be so deeply attached to the mouths of
our souls, that we shall not be able to get away. And
make each church exceed the righteousness of every form
of worldly institution, and even to be the “boot camp”
of freedom from sin. May we all esteem each other
better than ourselves, and the greatest among us, be
the one who serves one another the most, and yet be so
aware that Jesus is our only standard of perfection,
that we may always bewail our shortage of meeting his
most blessed excellence. May our only pride be in the
one who cannot fall or fail, but ever raise us up
higher unto our everlasting Father, even our Lord and
savior Jesus Christ! You have saved us by faith, and
now also give us an understanding of what it is our
faith believes in, though you have entrusted us with
your faith, as if a sinful heart were a fit object to
agree with such perfect and complete holiness. Now add
words to the Spirit of prophecy in us, even your
testimony working together with ours, to clarify what
our eyes of faith sees. Shall our faith go without a
voice to describe the message which God has written in
our faith?
The image of this old universe has now been rolled
up like a scroll ever since the death of Jesus, but
created a light barrier due to the weakness of which
our very earth is the last remaining vestige of in the
whole universe. Sinners who stand alone in the midst of
all else who have repented only see others as if they
are like themselves, because the new light cannot
penetrate the force field of their own sinful shell.
Once we repent and have new life, we are then
automatically connected to all other new life which is
like it. So when the earth shall have the “way, the
truth and life” return, and reign for a thousand years,
he will bring with his presence our sight of the new
universe, but first cause the “scales” of the old
universe to fall from our eyes, and leave us in
darkness, until the main star: even “the bright and
morning star” appears. We as the bride of Jesus will
not feel our full worth, until we are with our husband
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in all fulness, and feel his natural love and
appreciation for us. Because Jesus himself, or else he
would not be a husband, cannot live in perfect joy and
fulfillment without us. But if you withdraw your breath
from us, what will keep us feeling as if we can still
breath? Why when we do not practice at something, do we
get “rusty?” Is the water of life still present, but
only when we are not getting the oil to lubricate our
prayers, it effects us in adverse ways? It is the oil,
not the general benefits of heaven we lack when we turn
away from God, since what is satan but one big engine
that has ground to a halt and rusted away for lack of
oil? As soon as he fell from his original position, he
was eaten by maggots. ISAIAH 14:11.
Only the heart of Jesus is the “wax” or that is
“oil” we need that can save us, and when he returns,
that is what he will look for. His heart when melted in
his grace for us is “rolled out” like glass or
something to write on, because his heart is our
“welcome mat,” PSALM 145:3, PROV. 25:3, and the
recorder of all of our thoughts and prayers. DAN. 7:10.
What will be shown that we wrote there when judgment
day rolls around? How our lives would change if cameras
recorded our every move, but what about those flaming
eyes of Jesus? If we have things which we are too
ashamed to broadcast on daily news, what will we do
when the heart of Jesus will not only be the “good
news,” but “only news” that the whole creation will
know of? What will we do when the words of Jesus,
“bring them here and slay them in my presence” is
fulfilled? LUKE 19:27. And “slain eternally” with fire
and brimstone in the presence of not only the Lamb but
the holy angels? 2 THESS. 1:9. To be punished where
your “once possible” destiny is in view, and the person
against whom you sinned that made you not end up with
the blessed makes the most exquisite of torments. The
poor on earth suffer more, if the rich are in sight,
and it is a bitterness for a sorrowful person to hear
laughter. PROV. 25:20. Our “isolation” sometimes is a
great comfort, if we will be otherwise “more” miserable
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with what life has to offer. Sometimes chains can be a
sign of God’s love, to make us able to seek him.
The foolish virgins no doubt loved being
“pentecostal,” but did not seek the heart of Jesus
whose “wax” alone could keep the candlestick of their
church burning bright. PSALM 22:14. God is not a stingy
God when we seek him for a thing, and so his granting
our requests often gives us a false sense of security
believing he is pleased with us. It is the “edge” of
our prayers which he will not grant, (when we are not
well oiled, MATT. 25:4,) which is the “lavish” nature
of our requests, EPH. 3:20, because we will consume
them on our lusts. JAMES 4:3. But the “crumbs” of
pentecostal grace, and glow, and speaking in tongues
are well within range for even the devil, who “casts
water, or his imitation holy spirit, out of his mouth,”
to try and carry us away in his deception. Lord! Lift
us up above this “level” satan has deceived us into
thinking is not only good enough, but so common, we
have been made to think it is the “only” level of true
Christianity! But judgment day will not be a respecter
of persons, though “hand joined in hand,” PROV. 11:21,
and we all agreed unanimously that this would be the
only right and acceptable way. We cannot supersede the
wisdom and knowledge of God, who has seen the end of
eternity from the very beginning of it. ISAIAH 46:10.
Sin is by definition “against God and God only,” and so
how do we dare think we can decide for God what he
considers to be against him? There are too many “grey
areas” that are “neither right nor wrong,” but “left up
to each person to decide that thing he allows.” But yet
because we crave righteousness, we tend to want to make
up many rules, and then to enforce them upon others as
if they can be “forced” by a “civil coercion” into
being saved. God searches “the thoughts and intents of
the heart,” because he is not impressed by outward
forms.
And if we do not get our blood from our savior
Jesus, we will be vampires of one another like our
father (of our sin) the devil. His teeth are, after he
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was eaten by the supernatural maggots his body produced
immediately upon his fall, shaped like terrible fangs.
One is for piercing and the other for drilling, and his
eyes are those of the ultimate hypocrite: all for
looking at others, but nothing to look inward upon
himself. Self examination is the only exercise one can
practice in order to be transformed to need the blood
of Jesus as our life, and his body as our new material
for our souls. God says the violent must take the
kingdom, but did he mean that we can “confront God”
with the violence of our judgments and criticism
against the most high, and not back it up with
“determined resolution to do his will?” Most judgments
against God are those for his failure to give our
sexual nature the spouse it needs, but an aggressive
and even assaulting action upon a “love rival” only
impresses a potential mate, if it is succeeded by a
show of greater strength. But what strength of
character are we willing to show God, when we come to
him wrestling for him to back up his promises with his
own actions? Usually we moan and complain, and have a
tantrum like a child, (though perhaps in a
sophisticated manner,) and then slink off sucking a
form of the thumb by practicing some addiction of one
sinful level or another. Would God call us “”murmurers
and complainers,” if we did not then also “walk after
our own sinful lusts?” God would see us as “sirs and
madams,” instead of thugs and would be tyrants. God
would be glad to be the holy God he is to us, and pay
what he owes by his own word which binds him to it! But
God is to each of us according to the kind of people
are by our words and actions. To the merciful he will
show himself merciful, but to the froward, God will
show himself unsavory, etc. Formalities are not by any
means a worthless gesture, even when they are not
backed by any kind of good faith or intent. And to
those who are courteous and agreeable from the heart, a
simple “good morning” can be a prayer of “the God man
Jesus Christ,” as “good” means “God” and “morning”
means “Jesus who is the bright and morning star,” or
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called “the morning” for short. But should we be
discouraged because we know by simple “street smarts”
that most people say it as if to replace the words
“leave me alone?” Too many people use the name of God
to express their rage and discontentments, and that is
like using an olive leaf as a sword. God will not curse
others just because we take his most holy name into our
vile lips, and we would have a better chance to live
our wicked urges to torment and inflict others, if we
got honest and realistic and used the name of satan and
his angels to express our animosities, and wished we
were more like the devil to harm others.
Sinful nature will never be abolished as long as we
are under the curse of sin, and so to think “God does
not like hypocrites” does not fly. God only does not
like hypocrites who forget the real and true nature,
and either do not resist their sinful propensities, or
else think they are then holy and pure when they have
resisted committing known and obvious sins. Most sin
will remain “grey” only, and therefore in need of
sanctification, and an inner dwelling and control by
the Lord Jesus. Paul says “I know and am persuaded by
the Lord Jesus that there is nothing good or evil of
itself, but to him that counts anything unclean, to him
it is unclean. Happy is the man who condemns not
himself in that thing he allows. To the pure, all
things are pure, but to him that is defiled is nothing
pure. Every creature of God is good, and nothing to be
refused, for it is sanctified by the word of God and
prayer.” God in many ways and areas of our lives places
us as our own judges, and lets us decide whether we
will give ourselves the thumbs up or thumbs down! Faith
could save the vilest sinner, though he never repented
of his sins, if God were willing to so do, but the word
which requires our repentance to gain eternal life
makes getting and growing in faith contingent on our
doing the will of God. Sure grace saves us initially,
but grace is a mother who requires after a time, if for
no reason but for the sake of the child, that the child
learns to no longer make dirty diapers, or need to wear
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them. Jesus says he “gave Jezebel space to repent of
her fornication,” the whole time of which no doubt she
was saved by grace alone. But when she did not feel
gratitude for such a merciful and patient savior, and
reform her ways, Jesus threw her into a permanent bed
full of the sin she was really partaking of in her
pleasure seeking. Jesus warns us “if you do not know I
am the Messiah (your anointing,) you will die in your
sins.” And knowing him after a time of “grace” requires
that we begin to “act” like we are holy. Without
holiness we will not see God, and since our being holy
in this life is impossible in our very souls, since we
cannot be purged from our iniquity until we die, as God
sounded in the ears of Isaiah, holiness must be an act,
though an act which keeps in mind it is an act, and not
be like an insane actor who begins blurring the line
between his screen shots and real life. Marriage itself
is an act of “Christ and the church,” but as soon as
either the man or woman begins thinking it is literal,
is when there is “trouble in paradise.”
(but the slow speed of the light not yet fallen
like figs upon the earth,) and the present creator of
the new universe, rolled out likewise like a scroll,
and your breath breathing into it, (but yet hidden to
our sin tainted eyes; for we are not worthy, while the
smallest spot of sin is in us, to behold the sight of
that eternal heaven reserved for all of your eternally
blessed:) We seek to match up all of our bodily parts
with those of your image, the gospel of “Christ,” that
is, of the anointing of your only Son, 2 COR. 4: 4, so
you may lay your whole body upon us, as Elisha did upon
the dead boy, and Jesus did upon the cross, ISAIAH 26:
19, to raise him from the dead, while we are behind the
closed doors of our prayer closets, so we may open our
eyes “anew” and see you more clearly until it is no
longer through a glass darkly. 2 KINGS 4: 33 - 35. And
we trust that now that Jesus has opened up your inmost
heart, and satan is defeated and utterly removed from
his satanic power, he is forced under your blood to be
used by you for our good, until he is thrown into the
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lake of fire. REV. 20: 10. So multiply payment of all
satan has stolen from us sevenfold with all the
substance of his “house” PROV. 6: 30 - 31, making him
utterly forfeit his position as the “anointed angel.”
EZ. 28: 14. You, Lord God, seem to go far in your
“absolute statements,” of restoring the years the
locusts have eaten:” even that great army of devils who
like locusts have devoured all that you have allowed
them to. But will you also restore all past generations
satan has murdered and comfort all those he has
tormented? We may say “in heaven,” but is it really
“restoring,” if it does not truly “restore?” If they
had been plucked out of heaven, then restoring would
mean returning them to heaven. But they were stolen
from planet earth, and from our own midst. Is
persecution and trials acceptable if they do not line
up with what you have promised, which is “tribulation
ten days?” REV. 2: 10. How and why then have so many
had tribulation for whole life times? But as we seek
your face, we shall keep our ears of faith and pens
ready to come to the right understanding, or you say in
Isaiah 27: 11, “When the boughs thereof are withered,
they shall be broken off: the women come, and set them
on fire: for it is a people of no understanding:
therefore he that made them will not have mercy on
them, and he that formed them will show them no
favor.”
We as “prisms of your light,” or that is, “hue men”
who “magnify the Lord,” are such because we are those
WHO are made in your image, and so like a machine, we
cannot but do what we are designed to do. But if we put
our shoulders of prayer into the burden of seeking you,
this light shall become purified, and no longer
darkened in the clouds of our sins, but we shall repent
of them all. So pour all of your corresponding energies
and healing health into our bodies and souls and minds
and every awareness, to make us able to have life
support upon this “barren moon” of Satan's world, since
you have already called us out of the world, by
removing the “air” by which he can speak to us through,
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as the “prince of the power of the air,” for we are the
sheep of your only Son, and “will not hear the voice of
another.” JOHN 10: 5. But in removing the stale air of
Satan's heart of sin, and “depths as he speaks,” REV.
2: 24, you have replaced it with the “mighty rushing
wind” which “windfall” is our “divine settlement” for
having been shaped in sin, which we have “sued” you for
in praying PSALM 51, and which “settlement” began fifty
days after the last supper before the crucifixion, or
in other words called “pentecost.” And this outpouring
did not end, but our seeking and treasuring of it did!
And why have we cast away a settlement the very angels,
who have everything compared to us, “desire to look
into?” Because we have failed to till the soil of our
hearts, but left them barren as moon dust, by failing
to stay in the word, and with the “design” of it being
used as the means of our continual and ongoing
“conversion unto you” as it’s “theme.”
Make us, as one universal body in heaven and in
earth, both militant and triumphant, have one “life
support” from your armor, with the shield of faith to
reflect the fiery meteorites of the devil. EPH. 6: 16.
And as to we who are militant upon one universal
“earth,” without air, satan is better at revealing his
true colors as the vicious and wicked one, but uses his
“air” as his “phone line” to deceive and misguide. But
because we are as one vessel of your merciful pleasure
and all manner of intercourse which you can possibly
desire to have with us, satan cannot deceive us for
long, if he can at all, and so we are also a vessel
wherein there is all manner of your own pleasure that
dwells in your image, the gospel. JER. 22: 28, & 48:
38, & EZ. 18: 32, HOSEA 8: 8. So shed your grace of
truth into our hearts “abroad,” enlarging our hearts to
facilitate your infinite gifts, so we may “pay” that
which we pray unto you as “our yes is yes and no is
no,” and therefore is all “vows.” ECC. 5: 4 - 5.
Give us the need and full desire for your fullest
image to be put into us, and radiate through us, seeing
what a “tragedy” it is, if the ministry of your only
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Son, has no “succession” in his bride, using our whole
soul “as one” and body “as one” for all manner of
prayer through us, as Jesus “knowing us,” and all
“pictures” of prayer that you as the “master artist”
have made us to manifest from your dwelling in us. If
our foundation as your “bride” is not solid, then we
will be as “old bottles” attempting to contain “new
wine,” and so give us wisdom to pray for those things
that will make us eternally sound vessels, who will
never need to be ashamed, but pass from that last and
eternal judgment, HEB. 6: 2, the second death, unto
life. JOHN 5: 24. May Jesus as our “lawyer,” make the
powers of the fallen world unable to mess with us,
showing your gospel will, that all men be saved and
come to the knowledge of the truth, and that you
therefore desire it infinitely more than any of us ever
could even if we were perfectly holy. But the fact it
will not be done in all men, shows that it is the will
of the gospel, and not of the soul of the gospel, who
knows all, and plans all; just as our bodies have wills
that our souls may not have, being infinitely wiser in
our souls than our bodies. But even so, your body the
gospel, is far more wiser and intelligent and
affectionate than any of us could begin to imagine, and
as we are made in your image, you as the “spirit” also
“seek the deep things of God:” namely of your
omnipotent soul, for what other conclusion can one come
to regarding these verses? 1 COR. 2: 10. And as you
pray unto “your depths” saying “let there be,” may we
have your same desires for “newness of life,” as you
“make all things new,” even making the Holy Bible “one
new and better testament.” HEB. 7: 22. And as you have
made room for “creation,” make us to make room for new
children to be born unto you, as we “travail in birth”
upon this “desolate” and “abominable” world, where
nothing could grow, if your light were not shining into
us. And as the “woman shall be saved in child bearing,”
1 TIM. 2: 15, make us as your “woman upon the moon,”
REV. 12: 1 - 2, create an environment of your Holy
Spirit in which new born babes can grow up strong and
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healthy unto you, and who we as “apt to teach,” 1 TIM.
3: 2, may be as the woman in Song of Solomon, (1: 6, &
8: 10,) whom the “Sun of righteousness with healing in
his wings has looked upon,” to also “be a wall against
the evil one, and whose breasts of faith, containing
the pure milk of the word may be like towers of refuge
for those who desire the sincere milk of the word.”
Then when we “feed your sheep,” we shall “find favor in
your eyes,” as one who loves Jesus. Make us therefore
“clean beasts” who “chew the cud,” (meditate in the
word day and night,) and whose hoofs are “cloven,”
DEUT. 14: 6, as Michael the angel setting one foot on
the earth, and one on the sea, REV. 10, so as we are in
the church, we may also go into all the world “fishing”
for men, and preaching the gospel of peace to every
creature. Let us not be as the “dead sea” where nothing
enters or exits, or we might as well dwell in moon
dust, and be as isolated as the moon is from it’s
husband the earth. But let us, in our communion,
include one another in a pure way; who, as the temple
of the Holy Spirit, convinces the world of sin, JOHN
16: 8, TITUS 1: 9, and so then fellowships with them
after they also receive the truth and repent of their
sins. ACTS 10: 13.
Make us more effected by your senses than our own,
which causes an internal flow of new life exiting
continually from the same place which was used to glory
in our own lusts, even our bellies. So that now they
instead flow with the living water from the throne of
grace, to also be the voice of Jesus in us, whose voice
of many waters is the latter rain, and which is falling
into the “troughs and roofs and ducts” of our ears of
faith listening in obedience to it. REV. 22: 1. JOHN 7:
38. PHIL. 3: 19. May those clouds “black with rain,” 1
KINGS 18; 45 - 46, follow us, PSALM 23, as we lift up
from our feet the “garments of our own righteousness”
laying aside every weight and sin, to run the faster to
your throne of grace. And so soon prepare us for you to
pour forth as a mighty storm of Holy Ghost revival,
your true “thoughts of peace” to us, reviving the rib
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of Jesus by a power as much greater than we can imagine
as the heavens is above the earth, and not any one
person’s “perception” of what this “rib” is, but the
very mind of our head and husband, Jesus Christ; for he
alone is master of his body the church. May Jesus be
the heart which we, as his ribs, protect, (to do his
bidding in the earth as his will,) and may he “safely
trust in us,” that we may diagnose all his thoughts and
desires as one made and designed to be his “helper,”
and doctor of love to the great physician. But knowing
he has placed all his judgment of “how we love him,”
upon “how we feed the sheep,” JOHN 21: 15 - 17, let us
be saved therefore in bearing his children, and not
spare to “travail in birth,” even if we must be “pained
to be delivered.” REV. 12: 2, & GAL. 4: 19. Even as we
shall beat our own swords into “plowshares” and “spears
into pruning hooks.” And the Lion which once ate to
please it’s belly, though it may even have murdered a
man in his lack of love, 1 JOHN 3: 15, to do it, now
“eats straw like an Ox.” Make us even now upon this
“Holy mountain” where nothing shall hurt or destroy,
and where “no weapon that is formed against us shall
prosper,” find all of your word to be “life unto life
and grace unto grace and faith unto faith” unto us,
adding greater blessings the more we already have
blessings. MARK. 4: 25.
Make the cause of this ministry of yours through
us, be the very deepest will of the absolute
omnipotence of God, which though I pray to you as “our
Father,” I cannot pray to the absolute depths itself,
except by “address” only, since my faith fails me when
I speak about it. Song of Songs 5: 6. If my faith did
not fail, though it does not fail entirely or I could
not so much as stand in the Lord at all, one smallest
portion of faith would be enough to cast any mountain,
no matter how large, into the depths of the sea of the
whole universe. And this mountain of debris which I am
casting into the sea of God’s grace is soon to
“surface” as the “island of Patmos,” upon which Jesus
in his glorified body shall eternally visit, and dwell
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within as his temple. Making us of one faith, one Lord
and one baptism, to be a mighty tree in which all the
birds of the air may find lodging, as Paul says, “that
which comes upon me daily, the care of all the
churches.” For what is carnal life but a temporary
detour from God? Though God does not forsake us, since
he took the presence of himself in Jesus out of him on
the cross, to instead give it unto us. And this “Jesus
Christ crucified” must be the only thing we are
“determined” to know, as our only hope, which we must
be ready to given a “reason” for why and how he is “in
us” to every man. And if we are ready, we will not wait
for them to ask, since they never will, so we must
volunteer to tell them anyways. Since that which is
invisible to our carnal sense, is really the only
reality, and this world is but a “vapor” which appears
but a very little while! Soon the long-suffering love
of God, 1 COR. 13, will become love which only takes
pleasure in what it loves, and so now is the time to
extend the love of God, so that those whom God must
suffer to love, will one day be loved by God’s “good
pleasure.” If God did not suffer with sinners, why does
God want to transform them into new creatures, since it
is all for God anyways, and the sinner is happy just
the way he is?
... by which all things are created, but in that way
which reunites us to our original souls before they
were shaped in sin. You, father God, tell us that in
making us to begin with, Jesus is our “father,” and
through his death we inherit his life. But make this an
“ongoing intercourse,” so it may be the source of those
new stem cells which recreate tissue where those who
are brutal and satanic have cut out and destroyed. So
make us defeat satan by reversing what he has done, and
make him to repay what he has stolen seven fold. Also
force him to give up the whole substance of all those
blessings he inherited as a “previous”
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holy angel, while making himself to suffer as he has
caused us to suffer. PROVERBS 6; 30 - 31.
Make your bodily image in us be fully able to
function through us separately and on your own despite
our own failures of goodness to apply the full power of
your inter-coursing love to us. We wish to be
“possessed” with all that “burning desire” which
“smokes” against our enemies, to manifest all your most
reproductive jealousy that creates new children born
again of the spirit. And if we do not give you
that right that you have as owning all privilege over
all your creation, to
use all flesh as that which is designed to connect
directly into your
very existence, then put us under your feet with satan,
so that you may call those who are worthy. And seeing
that our bodies will be resurrected and remade into our
heavenly mansions, which includes all we ever did and
thought and
experienced, but transformed in the body of the risen
Jesus, make us live the rest of our time on this earth
as “redeeming the time,” and learn to retain a true
vision of what is holy and acceptable unto your most
loving presence. Since what we own, including our very
awareness, and general existence, along with the sub
conscious, are all extensions of our flesh, and whose
sorrow will be turned into joy, make us to rejoice in
that joy we had with you from before the foundation of
the world. And along with the resurrection of our
rotting and/or destroyed corpse, include every skin
cell or body part we ever shed, so that not one “dust
particle,” down to each molecule, with all it’s parts
will be lost, but all turned into perfect prosperity in
the highest and most extensive definition of it. But
make all to be restored, and considered to be, (since
we are the bride of Christ,) to be as important and
valuable as Jesus Christ’s own flesh, for we are
members of his body, flesh and bones. While the wicked
will rather be lost in oblivion, than to have such a
thorough resurrection, only to be held up as examples
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of shame and contempt eternally. And so make all we do,
after being cleansed in the blood of Jesus, to become
as honorable as his very wounds, though at first the
very sins which we most shamefully committed.
And supply my soul and body with all
manner of substance which you can use to minister to
yourself with, and your creation, and especially the
miracle working power that carries on the work Jesus
started in the days of his flesh. Make your “sweetest
life” be the life of all my flesh, and come forth from
the very “other side” of my soul where you are coming
forth into me more and more always. And with every
prayer I make, make my heart and soul bigger and more
desirable for you to house in, no longer making me a
manger in which Jesus must eat what he could not stand
to, but real food he may fellowship with as a ministry
to his own soul. Use me for the “object” of all your
powers, especially those qualities of yours, for which
you specially designed me in all my functions to have.
So in the order that your house, (i.e. the TEMPLE I am)
serves and interacts with you, set your specific
inclinations you may have, towards a creature such as
myself, to be of a very atmospheric nature. And though
I am sinful, and so do not deserve release from my
house of bondage, bypass all of my sinfulness, while
also healing and smoothing it all over, in your disease
eradicating divine health, so that I may be a good
steward made to live in your house of prayer forever,
with your love to me as my prime example. Cover all
despair in the world with grace, and Look upon me as
you would as if I were holy, and see my sinfulness as
an illness which you most graciously and pitifully seek
to cure in continual progressions. Make me a “plant” of
yours whose fruit you continually harvest and consume,
and therefore making it all more and more pleasing to
you in every way has the utmost and urgent of all
priorities. And make the
effects of your harvesting the souls you make your
workers to find, in all their many areas of the world,
be so overwhelmed by your holy spirit and so intensely
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beloved by your most powerful and sweet holy spirit
comfort, that it is greater than any person can ever
ask for in your loving kindness, and multitude of
tender mercies. Then kindle all your bountiful
calculations to make us partakers with all the holy
angels there are in existence, to receive their full
and whole ministry. And make it easy for you father God
to harvest and consume all forms of our prayers, in
their essence and illustrations, that we as your church
may be like a “fountain” whose water never stops or
ceases to increase in splendor and might. And so make
your church so perfectly beautiful and glorious to you,
and without spot or wrinkle, that we may produce every
manner of fruit you have delighted in as the products
your holy spirit delivers to you. Make this our joyful
sacrifice eternally, and ever more and without ceasing!
Prosper your church materially and
spiritually therefore, to that
“acceptable degree” before our soul prospers
accordingly, so we may have the means for you to
“prosper us as our soul prospers.” Since we cannot
prosper in our souls at all, until you do for us what
we do not deserve, prosper us to the degree that we
“need” you to in order to have our souls prosper, for
which cause you may then add unto us all the
corresponding riches suitable for us. All of which is
the work and duty of your undeserved favor, and whose
love “believes all things” including all our promises
of better performances to do your will, and to fulfill
all our vows. So that we may have that opportunity to
“increase” in being a greater and better beauty and
pleasure to you, (though it may yet all be in “word”
only,) as fulfilling the will of your motherly image
the gospel of Christ, and holy Jerusalem, as the very
reason of why you made us to begin with from the
foundation of the world. Exercise not the vast and
ultimate will of your omnipotence against us, that
causes many to perish in everlasting pains of a molten
rock which cannot destroy those in it, unless we are
included in that “motherly will” of yours which not
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only desires, but causes many to be saved and come to
the knowledge of the truth. Thereby making us to
“function” in all our faculties, to magnify your whole
being all “proper divisions” as a prism divides the
light which is poured into it. Make our very “bones,”
both physically and spiritually which is our “faith,”
to contain the fulness of all your sweetness and health
and beauties for which we are designed by you in your
mind, from before the foundation of the world in
Christ. Making us to contain your word of faith like
“fire” shut up in our own creature faith, for the
purpose of discharging it’s power frequently and
massively unto you always in the first place. And as it
is an eternally radiating prayer, make it, on it’s way
to you, pass through all persons on earth, to heal and
sanctify them in a way that is all encompassing and as
potent as your omnipotence.
Both our spiritual and physical
attributes are made as one in the beginning, and so
make our outer image correspond according to our inner
heart, to reveal all our deepest and most genuine
intentions. And in the way you made our flesh to be a
picture of the higher “soul” attributes, make our souls
prosper even as this human image, made in your image is
by definition therefore the “ultimate prosperity.” And
make the fulfilling of this prayer be so quick and
powerful and supremely overwhelming, despite how little
or slackly we pray and seek your face, (though with a
sincere effort that we do not pray little or seek you
slackly,) that it will be the very perfect
personification of being “fearfully and wonderfully
made.” But if you do thus with the little we do and
despite our great and most “gross” unworthiness, may
this be but to make us fully encouraged and “provoked
unto the ultimate love and good works” of praying
without ceasing with all our might, and to seek you
diligently with a most anointed and determined
“wrestling,” as Jacob did with the angel. Make just the
mere existence of the prayers of Jesus, even if it were
not for us directly, be as something so powerful, that
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if we but pray once in a while, no matter how
infrequently and insufficiently, (but all the more if
we do it often and diligently,) that it will be “more”
than enough reason to fulfill all your promises in us
with unrelenting and limitless long-suffering and
crucified love. But make our love and gratitude for
your great patience and grace greater and more
increasing every moment, as if your “greed” and
obsession and force on your part to save us, is
something more important to you than it could ever be
to the holiest saint! So come in these last days to
exercise your greatest skill and “subtle wisdom” to
outwit the serpent in all his guile, and in a way which
is more elaborate and complete than anything the mind
of your image, which seeks your deep things can
imagine. Since the need to crucify your only son was
only imagined by your most intelligent mind, not the
mind our mind was made in the image of. And since your
image seeks the deep things of your whole being, and
will throughout eternity, as his quest to seek to
continually further learn the “deep things of your
omnipotent soul,” make seeking you, and learning to
hear your voice, be our “one thing needful” that makes
us not only be made in God’s image, but function
according to his image. Whatever you have done from
everlasting until now and ever shall, do in each of us,
and with all your loving power, since we are but
“vessels,” and so crave to be vessels for the best
there is, and that all possible divine activity should
be performed in us at all times. Since our minds are
made in the image of that most intelligent mind of any
“vessel,” even that of God’s image, make our minds
study what he studies, making all our theology to be
truly “the study of God” while making us to also
receive the same benefits of seeking God, as the very
image of God, the gospel himself does!
And so glorify our humanity to be a picture of your
image, and if we could know all things your omniscience
desires us to know, we would desire to worship your
whole being which covers an infinitely unlimited
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territory. And as you make us to realize that all the
universe in it’s whole vastness and eternally so, no
matter how large it expands, is less than a pick prick
in size by comparison to your limitless size, make us
to seek your deep things all the more fervently and
with a more insatiable thirst for that latter rain of
the voice of Jesus. For how could we who must be
limited be created, if you did not have a purpose also
for us? And if your image were all knowing as his soul,
your absolute “depths” are, how could we exist, seeing
we “had to” be made in that image also? And so make us
those who are designed to seek God as a car is designed
to drive or a heart is designed to beat. Do this
because your desire to have it done is so great, the
smallest possible “excuse” is more than sufficient to
accomplish it with such force, it will place us all in
eternal “shock” at the power of your love and most
selfish need for the fulness of all my being, to most
thoroughly receive the fulness of your life and
substance. And though it may be “presumptuous” for me
to speak for you, and in behalf of “us all” on such
bold terms, make the fulfillment of this prayer so
decisive by you, and so obvious, and burn in us so
explosively and powerfully, and in a manner which
effects the whole cosmos in a way so obvious and life
changing to all around the whole universe, that all may
know what pleases you the most, and what is the
function for which you made us all. But let us pray it
may be for you to make us to be for your own sake, your
own most treasured fulfillments of all your desires.
Do not let us be deceived by the evil one, who
would make us to think we must fulfill the functions
and offices of that which you have not made us to
fulfill, but make us to be what you most desire us to
be, by having a vision of our highest selves you chose
in Christ in the very beginning. Make us those who are
called to the specific duties for which we are designed
and talented to engage in, making us to perform and
fulfill those specific duties and functions for which
you made us. All engage true praise for you in our
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hearts, whose “heat” is super-infinite, and with the
most holy desire that we may show you the ultimate
kindness, and therefore to be most useful and reliable
for you to own and operate as you please. And make us
so accentuated in this “classification” of being “your
bride,” that we may attract the most intimate and
passionate love of your heart, and experience all the
intercourse of our husband Jesus Christ. Send all of
the holy angels, to be our ministering therapists who
exercise our atrophied conscience, so we may gain the
strength we need to discern good and evil on the
highest level, whereby we may put satan firmly under
our feet and powerful bruise him in every possible way.
But especially may the blood of Jesus constantly
sprinkle us with all the cleansing and inspiration we
need to overcome our enemy, and to fully overcome our
own evil nature. And so make Jesus himself be Lord over
our whole lives, and to stay in his word to become his
students, and to obey him in all he has ever commanded
us. So make our nature and ability and powers conducive
to receive such intercourse as to be so advanced and
increased with all manner of most burning desire and
supernatural strength, that we may be too overwhelmed
by the holy spirit for anyone of us to ever again be
able to imagine the unbelief we have been cursed with
before you built up faith in us. And no matter how
intelligent we become in anything, if we do not have
your love in our hearts, nothing can avail us eternal
life, including Jehovah himself, that is, if we but
look upon his “outward appearance.” So make us to be
men and women after your own heart, even that heart
Jesus died to open up for us by the key of David, which
is PSALM 51. And may your own voice of the gospel speak
in peace to us, saying, “let this be because I am a
gift from the deepest depths of omnipotence itself,
unto each member of God’s kingdom.”
So make the fulfilling of this prayer, because your
love for your church is so great, that it has nothing
to do with my own degree of holiness, or for my sake,
but the sake of the whole kingdom as being “one” in the
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perfect unity of the true trinity. Which is to make us
all of perfect use as the “bride” of Christ, and
therefore fully compatible with Jesus as our one and
only husband. Use this prayer as among the many
channels and means by which you may keep us growing in
these qualities and
powers and conditions for which I pray, and to never
become ever again “drained” of these qualities and
attributes, or to slack or lack in receiving them, but
to have ever greater wisdom and knowledge in how to
pray for them. Rebuke satan from the manifestation of
your image to our knowledge and vision, as that which
saves us, and supplies us the proper and genuine belief
of all things which are holy. And as the “facets” your
image in us needs to shine forth unto all, give us the
knowledge of how you intend to design us and what our
behavior and functions ought to be. So in our
interaction with you and one another, teach us how to
have a heart as big as your heart’s desire is to give
to us all these things in their fullest glory. For
without a destination of your gifts, all the desire to
give in the universe will do you no good; since though
you pour out your gifts as freely as the sun pours
forth light, if there is no one who can or will receive
your gifts, they are not simultaneously giving the
“gift of
receiving.” So since giving to be a happy and blessed
thing needs also a receiver, we are required to have as
much love and mercy as God, (to be perfect and merciful
as God is,) since he must put his love in us, to also
make us the givers even in our receiving. And though
this be all for the sake of the “ultimate giver,” who
is God, may your love also “seek not her own,” though
it be to make us your own.
And make the effects of the prayers of Jesus be
without limit, so that it will be performed by you
without consideration to the relation of our limited
size
and abilities, in comparison to your unlimited size and
abilities. And so make no
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number, no matter how great, describe the degree of
intensity and forms of
energy which you cause to “burn” within us as being
“actual divine love.” But I must deserved my trials and
misfortunes, and then I drag every body else down with
me. But rather than my praise being faint, make my
pride in my own ego faith, so I will boast of nothing
but the cross of Jesus, that is, his saving work he did
on his church. Make us all to GRACEFULLY MOVE towards
you, and in every way we exist, and in all we do. Save
us from the deep sea “bends” which can occur if we
change too quickly without the proper spiritual
“safeguards” in place, from the deep “sea” world of the
world we live in, which is the collective sum of all
the “parts” of each sinner’s heart. But rather make us
not be “collective” but in our gathering together
bodily, so that we may be of one heart, soul and mind.
And in this unity, make each of us feel as important
and as indispensable as the whole, though we know due
to impenitence, you must also cut off the dead “boughs”
of this ultimate “Christmas tree,” which is your cross,
after it has “budded with almonds” and manner other
signs of life, being laid bare in the noon day sun of
your face. So make all exhilaration to be the
electrical stimulation of all your divine personalities
of your kingdom, through all the “media” of your
heavenly throne room. Make all which we do, whether it
be reading or praying in all manner of intercession, or
serving one another, regardless of how little our minds
serve the truth, (but all the more if our minds are
renewed more fully,) as we are directed to those duties
to which we are called, nevertheless increase the
effects and manifestations and communications of the
Holy Bible unto us, as the very “book of life” itself.
So make us and all our prayers unto you and for one
another, be truly sanctified and glorified in your
gracious love, who “gives honor to us as the weaker
vessel, and dwells with us according to the justifying
knowledge of Jesus,” who is our head and therefore
mind, and eyes and ears and mouth. And thereby also
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sanctify, multiply and prosper and develop all our
possessions in the redeeming blood of Jesus, which
sanctifies our very meat and drink, and therefore all
of our possessions also. Make all our duties as
channels to your working these benefits in and through
us, no matter how mundane and thankless our tasks may
seem to us, or utterly lacking of all spirituality, or
safety to remain ready in them to pass from this life
of death to the eternal life of glory. And for all
which we pray for, do it for your sake, so that
regardless of whether we want them or not, as long they
are what you want, you will see to it that they are
done in a manner that could even make us puffed up with
pride in the eyes of others, for the rapid and sure
manner they are accomplished, and with such excessive
generosity, even on an “omnipotent and almighty scale.”
So make it clear what exactly each of us, in our
individual offices and functions, are made and being
made for, so we may not only be of use to you, but have
the peace and tranquility and ultimate satisfaction of
knowing and understanding exactly what our use is. And
so that your desire to show love for our own comfort
may also be fulfilled, make us to fully know in all
clarity and fundamental accuracy, what positively
constitutes true eternal salvation, and a most full and
satisfying service unto all of your purposes and
causes. And at any point in your working your will in
us all, do not let any one of us become discouraged or
weakened in faith, or complaining due to lacking
personal fulfillments, but to stand strong, and
continue all the more fulfilling your will. Make our
mind towards truth and the receiving of it’s love be so
strong, that in the most raging storms of passion, or
pangs of withdrawal from any sin, or pressure from any
“collector” of any kind, or the sinful and damning
“kindness” of satan to deceive us to make us believe
“whatever we want,” none of this can move us from
constant and steadfast and immoveable praise and
worship and all manner of prayer and services to you.
And reveal your will also as we go along throughout the
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experiences you give us, as “words of faith and
knowledge,” so we may know what your thoughts are, and
so satan or any other being cannot intercept your mind
towards us. Make us to hear the heavenly language of
our heaven born souls in our very minds, and teach us
to repeat after it in perfect and most holy “tongues of
fire and praise,” even with all the skill yet
spontaneity of a master artist or musician, so we may
gain the best and highest gifts you have for us, and
come together in our bodies to meet and worship as one
flesh even now in this world. And so that we may most
perfectly beg and cry unto you for the success of your
will in
us, make the prayers of our most humble and quiet
hearts and minds be heard by you as if they are the
prayers of your very son himself. And in being fully
married to our husband, though not in the completion of
full cleansing as we will have in heaven, nevertheless,
make our unity with him on earth manifest his perfect
holiness and strength which is made perfect in the very
weakness of our sinful nature.
Seeing that my lusts and personal needs make it
extremely difficult to walk in the spirit, and maintain
a detailed journal of all the precise ways your move in
our midst, let me “buy of you that gold tried in the
fires of affliction,” even that heavenly cash, which
makes me to prosper with earthly wealth and money as my
soul is with the heavenly money. And ordain for me to
buy this gold tried in the fires of my resistance to
sin and praise of God, with the employment of being a
laborer in your harvest fields of souls, by giving me a
mind to serve and work for you, even the mind of my
inner mind of the heart. And in this mind disperse all
the knowledge and grace you have longed to operate and
move your people, so having done all, I may put on the
whole armor of God, and stand in this most heavy
apparel as if it is but the weight of a feather of one
of your wings. And seeing that the desires of your
church are not compatible with your limitless grace and
personal needs and desires for our salvation to only
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glorify you, (but only due to sin; since you made us,
before we were
conceived in sin towards you as a wife is to her
husband,) make us obedient to you in praying for those
things specified in your word; that is, “to have that
glory we had with you from before the foundation of the
world.” And as you are the restorer of all of our
original joy which we have never yet known in this
life,” as being the very means by which you may do and
fulfill them all in us, therefore do not let us be
subject to the “fluttery whims” of our own sinful and
limited nature as a “creature,” no matter how good they
are “of themselves.” So may we “sanctify our whole
creature self by the word of God and prayers,” and so
be made “good” as we were in the very beginning. But
since we have fallen due to sin entering the world,
rewrite our most holy identity to be made like unto the
very angels, since we cannot after having gone through
all we have in this life, merely be what we would have
been had sin never entered our world and defiled all
mankind.
I feel sorry Lord I am not a very loving person,
and so filled with spite and hypocrisy, but do not let
this hinder my prayers, or those of my fellow sinners
as something you can more freely use, than Samson used
the jawbone of an ass to slay a thousand men. And if
you can and will do that, you might as well for “good
measure,” use all the images of humanity I have
witnessed and imagined, no matter how diseased with sin
and unrighteousness, through which you may fully
minister unto us all the cleansing virtue of your blood
which Jesus shed upon the cross. Make us all like as if
“channels” whereby we “tune into” every member of your
kingdom, but make the only channel we keep on
continually and perpetually forever, in the television
of faith, be that of the image of God sitting on his
throne, and every word proceeding out of his mouth. Do
not let the gospel “roar” against us from mount Zion,
but speak according to your thoughts, which are
thoughts of a peace as different from the peace of this
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world, which Jesus gives and leaves with us, as the
heavens are higher than the earth. And make every word
of your holy scriptures be that through which you do in
all matter of fact reveal your image to us as “the good
news,” while using your whole word, though the best
scholars can know but little, to cause in us all an
increase in “life quality” that radiates as the
“healing and convicting radiation” to the whole world.
And do this in us all, regardless of our own intentions
for practicing the popular and sinful deeds of our
modern comrades, but make the result of it to be that
through all humanity, because we are made as creatures
compatible to your image, (having been made in your own
image,) to be cleansed of our own propensity to sin,
which is to walk by carnal sight.
Bring us all the way to the sight and recognition
of a sinner’s most hidden chambers of lofty deception,
and desperate wickedness, whose blindness to the light
of God’s face is in a darkness so great they would feel
it if they also had spiritual sense, so that by
examining our most inner sins of secret shame and
guilt, we may confess them unto you with the fulfilling
of your promise to “forgive us our sins and cleanse us
from all unrighteousness.” Bless us all with a
cleansing and forgiveness greater than can ever be
described or explained even to the mind of your own
image, so that we will be not only compelled, but even
craving to forgive our worst enemies, and pray for our
most despicable of all abusers and persecutors with the
fervency that we would pray for ourselves if we loved
all with the same love God loves us and himself. And as
your image is the ultimate and most ideal prism of all
your “blood” which is your unlimited holy spirit, use
each image of humanity real or imagined, by you, or by
any creature, as though it is both worthy of your love
and really existing, as being “called by you as things
which be not as though they are.” And so make all my
mind’s images be mirrors of your thoughts which “framed
the worlds,” as you made all things by your word, and
with the soul of Jesus living in me, as the magnifying
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lens and lover of my soul, to magnify, exalt and
glorify your own thoughts, as more substantial easily
than the whole universe combined many times over. Make
Jesus who is my head, to be fully connected by “joints
and bands” to my whole being, so that I will be fully
athletic in a most spiritual, and soul prospering way,
and thereby to prosper athletically also as my soul
does. And do this as “to your beloved,” seeing many
prosper, who are poor spiritually, so you may add unto
them the “greater condemnation.” But as I am rich in
faith, make me to be also rich with the wealth of this
world. And since I cannot resort to witchcraft or any
magic arts to supply me with the comforts of this life,
such as much money and friendship, seeing I am their
enemy, make them to give me all I would ask for, as my
own rightful goods they have stolen from me. And make
the seven fold return, be also in behalf of all the
children of God throughout all ages, so that I will
also gain their seven fold return also. And what I love
myself in prayer with, make me to also love my neighbor
as I love myself; and so be blessed as a real and
powerful intercessor.
And therefore as you restore the years the locusts
have eaten, and heal all our backsliding, seeing you
are married to us, restore unto us also that mind of
Christ, which though we already have, or we are
reprobates, it does not function so well in our
naturally rebellious hearts and minds. And so that we
as trees may grow where there is desolations and waters
may flow in the deserts, make us to be that “valley and
river bed” where the water of life flows, and to be
that channel through which Jesus in his glorified form
may do those “greater works” through us. And how can
any do greater works than he did in his earthly
ministry? By manifesting his now heavenly ministry,
wherein he is now the full glorification of his very
crucifixion! And does Jesus indeed still have all his
wounds and death he was made to be for us upon the
cross? Then how is he now living and glorified? Because
he is the first begotten of the dead, and made to be so
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much better than all the angels combined, he alone is
the “SUN” while all other angels are but “twinkling
stars.” And so therefore cause my affections to be
fully felt by you, and yours by me also through the
condescending grace of the image of Jesus Christ’s
crucified body, broken for us as the “earth without
form and void,” to make me reach out and down to the
most carnal human, regardless of how contaminated with
sin they are, or disobedient and deviant they are to
you. And so make the brokenness of Jesus be that “only
acceptable kind of sin MADE SO FOR US WITHOUT SIN,” in
order to replace our own sinfulness as that “SORROW
WHICH NEEDS NOT BE REPENTED OF.” And from this proper
level of humiliation for our diseased condition as
sinners, which only the
crucified Jesus forsaken of his father who is his blood
shed for us can supply to us as his “riches in glory,”
we may have that bedrock of faith from which we can be
raised from and sink no more into a deeper hell of sin,
and upon which the gates of hell cannot prevail
against. And so send your resurrecting power into us
all, fully putting all of our sinfulness into
“remission,” as a disease which gradually heals, no
longer backsliding into further corruption, and is no
longer in need of quarantine from fellowship and
communion with your holy people.
And while you are planting your holy seeds
of faith in us, out of which grows our new man from the
compost pile of sin, but the sin Jesus was made to be
for us, replacing my own sinfulness, to make us as a
tree of faith, whose largeness of heart, makes full
accommodation and room for all the birds of the sky to
come and lodge in our branches: even those who are
drawn to Jesus being lifted up in us. And make full use
of all of our “expressions” designing them to be all
fulfilled in a way which you consider to be most
adorable and appealing to you, and in all manner of
frequency and intensity. So make us all worthy to be
called “your jewels,” whose food and drink which is to
be the substance of our whole soul and body, is that
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most precious body and blood of Jesus, and so make the
power you pour into me have an effect greater and more
abundant than what we could possibly know and expect.
And because your omnipotence, Lord God, is all
powerful, whose limitless abilities has no bounds nor
hindrances, make whatsoever you desire your image to
have in us, to be something more real than life itself,
even that very love you have found searching your deep
things from everlasting. And that which you have not
found in yourself, annihilate in us, if it be something
which is any way contrary to your holiness, so that we
may not only see your face, but be counted worthy of
beholding it to all eternity. But so that we may not be
“superfluous and redundant” to have been created, make
us all the “female counterpart” of yourself, though of
a fully ultimate character, unlike the parabolic
picture you have made human males and females to be.
And so make the parable of calling the church “the
bride of Christ” be fulfilled in us and all your church
in earth as it is in heaven, by making us all your most
loving interpretations of your holy image, the gospel,
and the glorified body of your son. For we do not know
what we shall be, but we know that when we see Jesus,
we will be made like unto him. So make us even now to
see Jesus, and as we fall at his feet as dead, for the
sheer beauty of his radiance, fill us more and more
with his light and love, so we may be strong enough to
stand along side him at your right hand in heaven. And
in all the ways nature teaches us the facts regarding
the love a man and woman have with each-other, so make
us to have a “certain kind of beauty” that is most
appealing to Jesus, whose beauty comes from the depths
of omnipotence, even as the spirit who searches for it,
therefore finds and bestows it upon us.
So make us your church, something you find
“overwhelming,” even as she is the voice of Jesus made
flesh, taken from his very faith, in order to protect
and declare his “broken heart” whose substance, like
wax, is the very fuel whereby our candlestick may not
only remain in it’s place, but be kept burning bright
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as a torch of liberty where ever the spirit of the Lord
is. And indeed make your holy spirit so inseparable
from us, it is the very sea in which we as fish swim,
and which is the only place we can live. So Jesus, love
us all, with all your mercy, as we know we have many
more sins than we can ever successfully uncover and
confess, or even be fully and fearfully ashamed of in
this life. And love us as if we were beautiful in ways
that you could never find in yourself, though our
comeliness is “put upon us,” EZEKIEL 16; 14, and fully
and only coming from yourself who is the source of all
things saving and blessing to us. And not because we
are worthy or are this of ourselves, but because of the
“law of Paul,” that “unto that part which lacks do we
bestow the more abundant comeliness.” And who can lack
more than we who were shaped according to the sinful
corruption of our DNA by our original father the devil,
who “spoke his deep things to us” since his influence
entered the world? And so do not let me forsake and
sell my birthright to this ultimate and unspeakable
glory, by my failure to confess Psalm 51 that I was
shaped by you in sin, so that you may in your supreme
justice sue your own self in our behalf for making us
so. For there is no evil in the city but you did it,
Amos 3; 6, even the “city” of our hearts, and so for
our simple confession of the truth, the whole truth and
nothing but the truth, you have awarded us this
“Pentecostal mighty rushing windfall” of making us the
“windows” of such a great and heavenly salvation. And
so make those whose limbs of faith have been exercised
by the ministry of angels, be only and exclusively
subject to your “advances” you continually make upon
us, (making all others find my spiritual muscles too
steel like to move,) and with this leading by your
spirit, make my body as subject to your will as my soul
is.
And lift all spirits of heaviness and all degrees
of it in all your people, by the only “song” that will
not be a greater burden and grief to it, “the songs of
your spirit of praise.” And so give us that spirit,
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even the “GARMENT OF PRAISE FOR THE SPIRIT OF
HEAVINESS,” seeing our own spirit will only produce
songs that are like taking clothes away from one in
cold weather, and like vinegar on potassium nitrate.
PROVERBS 25; 20. ISAIAH 61; 3. Since your spirit alone
is like a garment, which is your righteousness, while
all our finest works, make even our greatest sorrows
seem joyful by comparison, in that they are all mere
“pieces of worn out rags.” And though soaked in the
blood of Jesus, it is like menstruation, since when we
do not receive your grace and mercy worthily, we count
it an “unholy thing,” and trod the source of this
blood, the body of Jesus under feet where satan and all
sinners roam and operate. And so though your blood
fills our very chalices in the Lord’s supper, it is
also filled with the abominations and filthiness of all
the “high level fornication” of attending upon
ourselves, in an “orgy of fellowship.” PROV. 7; 18, And
so do not let us make our “performances” the entire
purpose of our profession, and getting money the main
object of our setting up churches, as if we were but a
prostitute selling what God has bought with the only
price large enough. Since we might as well “give away
free” all you have bought with the precious blood of
Jesus, seeing worldly money cannot buy true brotherly
love and continuing fellowship anyways! And when we
cannot give our love away, let us not “hire and pay
them” with worldly gifts, like a desperate whore
determined to remain so, even the worldly gift of
blessing them with our “consent,” and “healing them
slightly” saying, “peace, peace when there is no
peace.” But rather empower us to stand on the
foundations and principles of all truth, and your love
for it, making our only payment, the fulfilling of our
vows to live and move and have our being in God as
regenerate souls. So though all the world forsake us,
yet God will not forsake us, and God will have the
“last word” on our true condition. EZEKIEL 16; 33.
And so make the only price we require for our
blessings to the world, be that they repent and seek to
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receive the full body and blood of Jesus in all
worthiness. And only then can we be worth enough in
true divine estimation, to be counted worthy to stand
before that same “son of man” whose body and blood our
souls are being remade out of as our whole substance.
ISAIAH 1; 15, MATT. 6; 7, REV. 17; 4. And because you
nevertheless pour your blood into us, instead of
creating new works of righteousness in us, it instead
merely “soils” all our own righteousness, which
compared to God’s vast and mighty hand of justice and
mercy, are all like merely torn and discarded fabric.
And because it is called “menstruation,” (though it
says “filthy” in the King James version, ISAIAH 64; 6,)
this shows our righteousness must be a thing of divine
reproduction, which can only grow from the “seeds of
faith” Jesus implants in the “tilled soil” of our
“broken and contrite,” crushed and collapsed hearts. So
stir up and hoe this “soil” of our hearts, so we may
not be like stony or encumbered ground, and guard them
from the devilish “birds of prey” who would even
through great patience and determination, take away the
seeds of faith in us. PSALM 35; 23. MATTHEW 13; 4.
Therefore also prune and grow our gardens of praise and
thanks unto you, so you may get all the glory for any
laying on of hands, in any form or for any reason, by
being the only “current” you allow to ever “flow” into
us from any source. 1 TIM. 4; 14. So make us to repent
with a sorrow that needs not be repented of, 2 COR. 7;
10, so we may also lose the weight of our sins and
besetting weights, as a “pruned vineyard,” and so be
able to “fit into” the garments which you have “tailor
made” for us in these treacherous times of sin. And so
make your garments of praise and righteousness our
“armor” also, even as your very joy which is our
strength. NEHEMIAH 8; 10. And your holy spirit who is
our comforter bigger than all the discomfort satan can
imagine against us.
Because when we see sin rightly it is the most
heavy burden to us that can ever exist, making all
other problems seem like fluttery and fleeting shadows,
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which are not worthy so much as worthy to unloose the
latch of our sinful feet. So in recreating me into a
new creature, since it is “the remission of sins,” all
my sinfulness becomes the “marks of the Lord Jesus,”
with their “stigma” being replaced by his “stigmata,”
and therefore as weighty as your very glory. And in
your relentless calling of my heart and therefore my
whole man to attend unto your face and fullest glory,
to become ever more exactly what most greatly pleases
you, and to receive all the jewelry you deck me with as
symbols of your grace and love, as well as of the
beauty you have placed “upon” me, EZEKIEL 16; 14, make
your will for me is that I be saved and come to the
knowledge of the truth, be truly and fully and
eternally fulfilled now and in this life. So I may be
used by you to teach others, and so the prayer of Jesus
that “the Lord of the harvest sends laborers into the
harvest” may begun to be fulfilled in a way that
presents the truths of your holy word “precisely,” and
so that Jesus may also pray for them as he does “his
own which you have given him.” Therefore make the
viewing of your face by all your saints, i.e. your
sacred ones, be with the pleasure of an endless and
ever more intensifying and elaborating “kiss,” pouring
all of your sweetest love and pleasures into us as one
soul eternally; exchanging our weak and corrupt powers,
for all of the characteristics and attributes of your
image and whole spirit. And so make us as one body to
“kiss the son,” so he may with all his grace, establish
our hearts as loving God, and as being known as letters
read and known by all those souls in the harvest
fields, who also hear the words of our souls in the
form of preaching. And also through full contact with
all of your bodily shapes and facilities, may we
manifest Jesus with all confidence, that we are “in him
that is true,” because we are in Jesus, the son of him
that is true.
And so make us to also perform and function in a
manner worthy and compatible with your limitless
dignity and sovereign royalty, and so do not “spare”
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your chastening and rebuking of us, to perfect us in
real and genuine suffering. But make it that kind of
“suffering in the flesh that makes us cease from sin,”
which surely includes fasting, to heal us from the
indignity of so much as the least abuse of our
consumption of substance, whether taken through our
mouths, or through our souls. And as Jesus was holy in
all his ways, make all our ways holy and strict, and in
perfect alignment with the specifications in the Holy
Bible for how we ought to live in this world assaulted
by satan, and the forces of hell itself. For we are but
a few miles above hell, and our bodies are made of that
which the earth is, and if ever you let go of us, we
would fall like a stone into hell, even while we walk
this earth! And it should be startling to think that
some of my reactions and struggles I yet see in me, in
how I say negative things, or respond in anger, or
false judgment, may be the result of hell itself
effecting me, though not owning or controlling me. But
because I ought to be grateful for your loving favor
which has not cast away my prayers, make me to only
behave and operate as one fully consistent with your
most sublime beauties and manifestations of all of your
omnipotent excellencies. And to make me worthy and able
to pray in behalf of others, adorn my human image with
the fulness of your “manifested image,” And make my
physical clothing to absorb the powers that occur as a
result of such a supremely divine “clothing,” which
makes me to feel the power which makes all the clothing
of your armor part of my very new creature’s anatomy.
And by virtue of the supremely overwhelming nature
of the light and image which consist your gospel image,
prepare me more and more to need such unspeakably vast
treasures, as the sick needs a physician, so that I
will never lack appreciation for it, in being so “full”
of your grace. But you need but open up my heart to let
me see even the smallest extent of what sin has shaped
me into, and I am fully insatiable and that eternally
so! And seeing that if it is all through your love for
me that you do these things, and are received by me as
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one whom you have made to love you, the overwhelming
nature of these blessings, cannot be anything but
pleasures and enjoyments and limitless satisfactions to
all those in heaven and in earth.
As you controllable the “filling” of all things,
also intermingle the substance of all my affections
with the substance of all of your body’s and your
kingdom’s most affectionate prayers: with all the
“images” of those prayers along with their “messages”
you illustrate throughout your creation. And do all
this decisively and quickly, as nothing lukewarm, so
that this prayer may be as the water which you licked
up at the prayer of Elijah: 1 KINGS 18; 38, making it
clear what your will is regarding all these things. So
that we may have a “direct channel” to receive these
things, unhindered by any lack of faith or sinfulness,
or any other things which would result in the fullest
answers to this prayer being postponed to any degree.
Even if it is all in your end of the spectrum, in how
you are now arranging for the full victory of your
“militant” church in the earth, as it is “triumphant”
in heaven. And so though you have for whatever reason
delayed the promotion of your kingdom in this earth,
heal the breach thereof, and receive your people into a
most close and mutual fellowship with you. But since
you can at anytime refuse to bow down to the failures
of those you have put in charge over your kingdom in
the earth, replace them with those who are worthy and
good stewards, and who will give an account in this
life, rather than to be merely “forced” to do so in the
next. So make me now become fully militant with your
armor, Jesus Christ, who is my head and full helmet of
salvation, while being incorporated to your bride,
through the “corpus” of Jesus Christ. And teach us all
how to wage war against satan and his kingdom perfectly
and most devastatingly to him; causing me to finally be
able to fully control without failure of any kind, all
that I consume and do, so that my body and all my
possessions may be perfectly maintained by you, and
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successfully turned into all that most greatly pleases
you.
Make my power to get wealth made from the very
image of faith itself, which is your voice proceeding
from the mouth of your image the gospel, the “only good
news,” since you alone are good, and Jesus alone is the
cash in whose image on the cross all cash (as the
dollar sign, $) is made. And so being in perfect
contact with my Godhead, (though yet calling those
things which be not as though they are,) may the
fellowship of the holy spirit unite us all to the voice
of Jesus Christ, as the many waters of the latter rain,
and which is to be poured out on all flesh. And by
which spirit I am both born again and developed from
spiritual infancy into that limitless well of the water
of life, so that out of my belly shall flow rivers of
living water: even water which is my identity “drawn
out of the water of life.” EXODUS 2; 10. And therefore
make our collective prayers a living example to the
whole cosmos of humans who shall yet be born, PSALM 22;
31, as to what kind of vessel they ought to be for your
service, and upon what “lines” is best to pray, and
what things that they pray for are guaranteed by God’s
will, as containing the name of Jesus, even his new
name, to be done. So sanctify and arrange and develop
all events in our lives, to be a prayer in itself, as a
fit tool and instrument to be used by your holiest and
most beloved people who can ever exist. So we all may
also may more perfectly elaborate on your innumerable
gifts to us eternally by your own wisdom and that
inspiration without which, we are guilty of “taking
away or adding” onto your most holy word. And give us
that light which is the “light in which we may see all
your light while reigning with you forever.” For
without you, who is both light and love no man has nor
can see you neither love you, no, nor love his brother
whom he can see; not even by carnal means. But if we
are blind to one another, we are also blind to God.
So by your ultimate will for your elect, make all
things work together for our good, by making us to love
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you as you love yourself, and for you to love us as you
love your only son which ever proceeded directly from
you. Unto whom alone you can say, “this is my BELOVED
son, and this (eternal) day (from before the foundation
of the world) I have begotten you.” Who is the “day”
star, or that is, morning star, and “sun” of
righteousness, whose wings of prayer manifest healing
virtue through us, unto all who so much as touch the
hem of our souls by faith, though we be thronged by the
whole world’s pressures and tribulations. For of his
works, we are all his sons, and he our everlasting
father. And if Lucifer himself was called “the son of